When I think about it.... I  had a lot of feelings for you.

Did any of them matter? what did it matter then? now it's even more pointless.

but I can't help it... even looking at  your pics makes me feel longing...

for what I do not know...

oh god

Nayeli

Today was a rather boring day.

Work seemed endless.

I am not sure I have the energy for all this.

I feel hopless as if I'm not going anywhere in life and never will. I have always had this feeling of it being too late. I wasted the time when I could have changed it and now I feel trapped..

oh jeez

I feel time is slipping away and yes I know it's under my control but I don't feel that it is.. how can I help this? tell me plz

I don't know

woa...

Xanga it has been tooo long..

Things have happend and I have not written them down :( *tear*

that damn myspace is what it is...

oh well

so yea yesterday I worked like all damn day... no joke 9am -10:30 pm

and let me tell you it hurt.. my feet and my legs and my HEAD oh jeez my head... not the day to work that long I mean jeez

Today wasnt so bad, I worked w/ Mal and that is always cool... I don't work tomorrow! yay

ugh my head still hurts from yesterday

.Word

I want:

Let Me Think

A guy who

*Personality

confident

intelligent

witty

makes me smile

sarcastic

a smart ass

a bitch when he wants to be

loving

VERY very romantic

extremely thoughtfull

wants only the best for me

thinks of me always

*Physically

Tall/Stocky (not skinny)

Nice hair (preferably long and dark)

Good Teeth

Pleasant Eyes

Good Dresser

Grooms well

Anything else does not matter

*Emotionally:

Wants me to be in his life but does not Need me to Fix him

comes from a good upbringing

Good Morals

Not Needy

Not Distant

Communicates well

*Absolutely

No Drugs (moderate alcohol is permissible)

No Smoking

*A  Must

Job

Car

Sense of style

I am NOT settling for less than I want ever again.

If I happen to find a guy who is not all these things but makes it up in other ways and truly makes me happy than so be it. But other than that no more O.K. guys.

I have all the time in the world to wait.

Currently Listening Back to Bedlam By James Blunt You're Beautiful see related

Random Pictures...

So yeah It's true I am getting braces again. I know sucks, but that one bottom tooth bothers me. I think my ortho hates me b.c I am so demanding. Oh well screw him. Im paying him right?

Good teeth are very important to ones look, don't you think so?

<3

Nayeli